Who am I?

I think I'm coming to a fork in the road. I'm wrapping up my career as Pro-Shop Manager at the local Golf Course. I've retired from any and all secretarial/clerical work. My days as short-order cook are over. I no longer cater to large groups. I admit I no longer have any interest in the local conservation district. I have long forgotten anything I new about schools, churches, credit unions, auction marts and trucking companies. I have raised my children and sent them packing. I've come to a place in my marriage that understands the importance of compromise and negotiations. So as I count the last of the golf tees and golf shoe spikes it occurs to me that I need something else to fill my time.

I know that seems exciting but at my age it's a little scary. For all the years that I was tied to a job I dreamed of having the time to exercise, do crafts, maybe make some homemade soap, have lunch with friends, clean and organize the house, landscape the yard, make friends with my inner child, get in touch with my spiritual side. All the things I've dreamed of are now possible.

BUT!!! After 29 years of cooking a supper in under 20 minutes, eating in 5, throwing in laundry while vacuuming, reading only while going to the bathroom, talking to friends for intervals of less than 2 minutes, cleaning the entire house in 10 minutes, pampering myself by way of a 4 minute shower, I confess that I don't know who the heck I really am.

It was easy to dream about cycling and hiking when I knew that time didn't allow it. But now with time on my hands how will I justify my flabby thighs, dirty house, and unbalanced bank account.

I'll either have to come up with new and exciting excuses or else really try some of this stuff. I don't know where to start. I'll have all the time in the world to get to know me but WHAT IF I DON'T LIKE ME?

I'm going to start with the promise to myself to clean the fridge and go for a walk. If I like the company I'll try it again tomorrow. If not I'll be calling you to entertain me. We'll see how it goes from there. Wish me luck!